Lupuswarrioringa

I think about the days when all of this destruction began. At first I thought it was all in my head. Not knowing how to explain my pain. My journey started in 1998. I was told so many different things to the point I started to believe that maybe it’s all in my head. Even today I feel like they are just treating me so I don’t complain. These are just my thoughts on dealing with an chronic illness (lupus)

alupieexistence
alupieexistence:

I remember how my mom used to call to me from her bedroom, which was right next to mine, and ask if I would help her sleep. 

For a woman with a high tolerance for pain, it was heartrending to watch helplessly when her medications were rendered almost useless due to a Lupus flare or some other lupus related complication. 

But all I had to do was lay there next to her and she would turn off the ever going television and in the silence, whether it was the warmth from my body or the rhythm of my breathing, she would fall asleep. 

Asleep, she wasn’t in any pain and I took comfort in that. 

My Mama D has been sleeping for 2 years now and is thankfully in no pain, but I sleep alone. I look forward to the day she wakes up and won’t need me to help her sleep in order to ease her suffering but to simply enjoy a restful nap together. :)

You a very blessed young lady. Always remember that you aren’t alone either. When you have any doubts just look to the Jesus and he will comfort you as well.

alupieexistence:

I remember how my mom used to call to me from her bedroom, which was right next to mine, and ask if I would help her sleep.

For a woman with a high tolerance for pain, it was heartrending to watch helplessly when her medications were rendered almost useless due to a Lupus flare or some other lupus related complication.

But all I had to do was lay there next to her and she would turn off the ever going television and in the silence, whether it was the warmth from my body or the rhythm of my breathing, she would fall asleep.

Asleep, she wasn’t in any pain and I took comfort in that.

My Mama D has been sleeping for 2 years now and is thankfully in no pain, but I sleep alone. I look forward to the day she wakes up and won’t need me to help her sleep in order to ease her suffering but to simply enjoy a restful nap together. :)

You a very blessed young lady. Always remember that you aren’t alone either. When you have any doubts just look to the Jesus and he will comfort you as well.